Saturday, August 23, 2008

the internet should die!!!!

I wrote a really insightful blog post about independence, and when i posted it my internet said page cannot display so I pressed back, and everything I wrote was gone

Sunday, August 10, 2008

Where were you when I was hurting?

2 whole months....

This week was a bit wierd. This was my sisters first week at college, it was a bit wierd, I told her I was going to call her in two weeks after boot camp, and talk to her, but I feel like something is missing from our house. I guess I didn't realize this, and she probably didn't either but I really looked up to her. Not so much because she was a hero, but because she was strong. I miss her.

But the wierdest thing was who she is rooming with. Her roommate at college was a friends of hers almost five years ago, they were on the same soccer team, and they used to hang out all the time. So my sister in her amazing excellence does not call my mom and tell her where the scrimage and everything is. So my mom calls her roomate mom, and asks her where it is, but my mom only got the voicemail. My mom got a call back later, and it was my sisters roommates mom, and she said that she needed help. My mom being a true minister, went and helped. Her mom stayed with us for the next two nights, and durring that time I didn't know what was going on, and I guess I still don't, but I knew that she was in trouble, and I just watched my mom help her, and protect her, and be with her durring those two days. It was really good to watch, because it really taught me what it means to be a minister. I am ministry bound in my life, and I have been so confused up on how I was suppossed to do ministry.

This week my mom taught me what it really means to be a minister, Its simply being there when people are hurting. I cry for our nation, when we need ministries like BUMP, Scum of the Earth, Student Life, etc., to actually live out what it means to be a Christian. Christians need to be there for people, and need to love one another, and most importantly loves those that are not apart of their religion (yes I am now calling Christianity a religion). I want to be a body that is reaching to the lost, not just once a year, but 24/7, Christians, please no more organizations or funds, or whatever unless you truly feel compelled by the Holy Spirit, Gosh that is hard to say, but we are not called to donate to an organization, or to spend a week away from our comfort zone, but instead we are called to be there when God is hurting, ALL THE TIME.

I have spent to much time trying to live in a world, that is controlled by program crazy christians, and I am done!! I want to participate in no more programs, and not another "mission trip," but I want to live a life that reflects everything we only wish a program could accomplish.

AMH